I have been married for 9 years our marriage has been one hell of a roller coaster. There are times that everything is perfect and then there are times when I feel that everything is falling apart. And I ask myself am I enough? There is a part of me that says that I am not enough for him, I also think that he can do so much better, is it wrong for me to feel this way after being married 9 years? He says he loves me, he swears that he is madly in love with me, but I still feel that I am not enough. If you are asking yourself has he ever cheated on you? The answer is yes he has. Have I cheated on him? The answer is yes I have. Can that be the reason why I feel so insecured? I don’t know but what I do know is that I do need help in finding out why I feel like this. I have a low self esteem and I have depression and I just feel worse when my mind starts to think all this negativity about my marriage. Maybe someone out there understand where I’m coming from and can help me understand.